Restrictions

Yesterday, I had a session with Thomas. We had to stop the session, which was not good since I have  debt. I have this one little spot that is being very stubborn about healing. I am going to finally give in and have it looked at. It will probably be one of the most embarrassing things I have ever had to do.  Lucky for me, I don't have a regular doctor, so I am just going to one of those walk in emergent care places.

Instead, my session took a whole different turn. He applied Capsazin and gave a pretty good hand spanking, including thighs. He stated since I am not going to be able to be spanked like I should, he would be modifying things with restrictions. First, not being able to remove the Capsazin for two days.

Another was lines- another thing I despise! It is hard to do lines with a family. It doesn't leave a lot of time to devote, but since he removed pretty much any other distraction it will leave a little more. I have 200 a day, which, I think is setting me up to fail daily. I am to write: " I will strive to follow my rules, and will accept whatever punishment earned if I fail to do so."  Each sentence is three lines and only nine per page... ugh! I still have a punishment of 125 with the cane for failure to complete my last line assignment on time.

I have limited computer time. I am allowed to blog, but not allowed to read anyone else's or comment. So, I guess I will be disappearing for awhile. I may check my e-mail too.

He is also limiting my texting, which, for me that is my lifeline to all my friends. I am also receiving an earlier bedtime when my regular family duties don't keep me from this. This is not going to be a shocker for my family since, I am a diet that has left me pretty exhausted. I will write more on that later.

The thing with restrictions is it is really based on the honor system. He is not here with me, watching my every move to see if I am complying. I still have to be accountable by checking in with him, asking for permission with certain things. When we are together, if he asks if I am doing what is expected of me, I want to say, "yes."  The one thing about me, is I can't lie. I could, but my expressions would give me away in a heartbeat.

Hopefully, this isn't going to last a long time. I am hoping that whatever is wrong with that little spot can be fixed quickly.